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Okay yesterday I ate (solid foods only):

1/2 a sausage (took me an hour lol)
1 potato
1 sweet potato
2 kiwis

i are r0x0rs ^^

but i didnt get to eat my noodles. I know the world didnt stop turning. Well I'm not God am I. I'll eat noodles today. mmmmm....

Check me out!

Wooo.. today :D today :D

I ate 2 kiwis and one potato.

And the world will stop turning if i dont eat noodles with egg tonight!!! (read: nothing can stop me now!)

AND i had sweet chilli sauce. i havent had chilli in 5 days!! Horror! So tasty.. mmm. want more...

solid foods. i lub you!!! <3

p.s: miss my sis D:

X & Y

Stumbled across this in my friend's blogsite. Its apparently what they used to create Coldplay's X&Y album cover. Known as the Baudot Binary Code (he said), you can try it out to see what your name looks like. This is baudot code generated Swurple and what the cover of my album (if ever) will prolly look like. haha. :P

Ignite!

left to right: Richie Kam, Tetsuo Yamagishi, Josh Yeo, Tim Tham (holding the Silver Sparky) [missing: John Frazer]

As many of you may or may not know, Josh Yeo (a very talented young man from our church) came up with a production called Calling Down Fire which won the People's Choice Awards at the Ignite Festival this year. Ignite is an annual christian indie film event where aspiring film makers nationwide (overseas entries are welcome) are called to put their skills into media and present a bible passage containing the given theme in a 5-10 minute short film.

Many of you may have wished to watch Josh's excellent animation of Elijah vs The Other Evils (because it is SO good you cant believe it). Well guess what. They're showing it at Resound this Saturday! So if you'd like to grab one last opportunity to be inspired by his composition, rock up to Resound and let that night be a moment of inspiration to you.

Congratulations guys! :)

Raves:

1) no sign of infection so far. Praise God!
2) tet's been awfully kind. I feel so lucky :)
3) headaches have subsided. I was right! It was the awful drugs... well I'm only taking whats necessary only from now on....
4) hardly ever feel nausea. only after taking drugs >.<
5) here ends another day. Tommorow will be another day towards recovery!

Since Ive stopped taking panadeine so frequently, i sometimes feel a throbbing in my jaw/tongue which oddly enough, is quite nice. Must be because i like to eat really spicy foods which tend to have this after effect. hehehe. as a result though, i drool alot more because maybe my body anticipates food. hahaha. maybe its just a reaction to "pain". But drool is good cos its antiseptic :)

My stitches are showing now that layers of gluggy blood have been washed off from my gargling. I hope that my cheeks will go down sooner than later because I cant chew while theyre obstructing my molars from connecting one another. And Im fast getting sick of foods that can safely be swallowed without chewing. Ergh....

Want cheeseburgers.... T.T

did you know...

im such a coward that it takes me at least 5 minutes to muster up the courage to swallow my pills each time becos i have this crazy misconception that my pills are making me sick and it takes me at least that long to tell myself that its for my own good.

Rants:

1) if i didnt have such horrendous headaches, this would be alot easier to bear.
2) if i didnt keep chewing myself when i sleep, i would worry alot less.
3) if i could eat proper food, i prolly would feel more perky.
4) what is up with the headaches already!?


okay. remember what we learnt at small group. suffering -> perseverance -> character -> hope.

sigh.

Resound!

Psalm 98 (NIV)

¹ Sing to the LORD a new song,
for he has done marvelous things;
his right hand and his holy arm
have worked salvation for him.

² The LORD has made his salvation known
and revealed his righteousness to the nations.

³ He has remembered his love
and his faithfulness to the house of Israel;
all the ends of the earth have seen
the salvation of our God.

⁴ Shout for joy to the LORD, all the earth,
burst into jubilant song with music;

⁵ make music to the LORD with the harp,
with the harp and the sound of singing,

⁶ with trumpets and the blast of the ram's horn—
shout for joy before the LORD, the King.

⁷ Let the sea resound, and everything in it,
the world, and all who live in it.

⁸ Let the rivers clap their hands,
Let the mountains sing together for joy; ⁹ let them sing before the LORD,
for he comes to judge the earth.
He will judge the world in righteousness
and the peoples with equity.

The 5pm service is hosting an event to be held on the evening of Saturday October 1st, 2005 @ CCC Milsons Point.

RESOUND will be an evening of bringing praise & thanksgiving to God through congregational singing. From 7-10pm, the jam-packed program will also include items from special guests including Deb Fung.

Finished with a scruptious supper organised by several of our very own House Groups, this is an evening not to be missed!

Please RSVP (via comments) if you would like to attend for catering purposes.

Giant Jaw..

oooh aaaah I pulled my teeth out today. It feels weird. I can't swallow very well :/

but everything went well I can only presume, so thanks for your prayers.

please keep praying that I won't get infection or that some weird hemorraghing will occur o.O

because Resound is next week. Exactly. :/

Yin and Yang...

The good:

Zane's band (Coalition of the Swinging) came to Manninig Bar at Sydney Uni last night and played some jazz. They picked up some people from the audience and just did some live jamming, which was totally mad. There was this guy with his violin and very big into irish/celtic/fiddler type music. And he just starts playing a repitition riff and the rest of the best (double bass, drums, keyboard, sax and soprano sax)somehow manage to jump into the rhythm and intertwine everything into something like irish jazz (!?). It was a gargantuan effort and I am most impressed with everyone's ability to improvise and play. As the drummer said, "some serious fusion going on... ". Quite enjoyable. :)

The bad:

On my way home, I stopped at Woolies to get some supplies. I'm stocking up my larder, preparing for Friday when I become dumber (literally and non) i.e. I'm pulling my wisdom teeth out. So after much MUCH debate, I decided to get Ribena. Which is expensive can I say!!! (#@$@%^$) And I was so happy but on my way home, the Ribena fell through the bag and all 1 Litre of it ended up on the sidewalk!! Argh D:

Woolies replaced it. It was late and I think they didn't want any trouble. So I guess that turned out pretty good as well. It was a small incident which taught me a big lesson about my faithlessness in God's hand. Need to grow.

Tanglung Festival

Its Mooncake Festival again. Also called Lantern Festival, Tanglung, Full Moon Festival etc.

When I ws a little kid, Lantern Festival was the only time we were allowed to play with fire and candles (needed to light up our lanterns often made of colourful glass paper stretched across wire frames twisted to make shapes like rabbits, aeroplanes, superman etc). I love playing with fire and candles. Also, it was the only time we were allowed to play by ourselves after dark.

Some years back in Malaysia our youth group at church decided to relive some childhood pleasures and brought some laterns and alot of candles to a park.

Heaps fun :)

Third Day has a new album and they're allowing you to download one of their songs (Cry Out To Jesus) for free. Officially (i.e. no shifty business).

Upside: Legit christian music

Downside: Sign-up

[Download]

Its a nice song. Quite Third Day, what with the strings and stuff.

Easy Wayness

Sitting at my desk with a bowl of boiled down assam laksa noodles. Procrastinating by reading other people's blogs and talking about a whole bunch of nonsensical nonsenses.

By today, I bought a total of 7 Easy Way drinks. I think I've finally reached my capacity. I figure, get sick of it while its cheap. Then I'll never ever have a craving ever again. The milk tea drink definately contributed towards the Easy Way Saturation Level.

I gotta read through the millions of Honours Projects offered and write to the supervisors about meeting up with them and talkign about the project they offer. I also have to write to the supervisors of the Summer Scholarship Program projects. SIgh. Its so much easier when they just spoon feed you and tell you, this is what you have to do. Freedom of choice is almost as evil as not havinga choice. Except when you have freedom of choice, you have no one else to blame except yourself. Not so Easy Way. (har har corny).

Gosh. The pressure...

Trigger happy...

"Hey guess what!? They're opening easy way at Central tommorow!! Two dollars!!!!!! "

Sally Ann gushed yesterday. Today, a whole bunch of us went to Easy Way for our $2 pearl teas.

Yes. I bought two. It was nice getting to know some people. Henry pulled out my splinter for me. While telling me the story of his friend who left her splinter and skin grew over it and she's had it for years o.0

Also, a couple of days ago, I finally invested in a new toothbrush:

Don't you just love its purpliness? :D

Also for your entertainment, a picture of the tim tams I ate two nights ago.

This is a very good flavour...mmm. Chocolate cravings...

After typing out that post, I had tim tams and milk for tea. Which promptly put me to sleep.

I set the alarm clock for 8pm but I must have slept right through it because the next time my eyes opened, it was 12am. Just great.

Anyways. I dunno what to do now. Im bored. Can't study. Read all the blogs. Even wrote an entry for my blog. maybe i should post some pictures. Blah.

Im hungry...

I've just realised these late night rambles are becoming abit of a habit.. hmmm.

Woooo!!

Man do I feel great! :D

I feel happy and healthy and energetic. And just full of beans!!

And the weathers been so gorgeous!!!

I feel so....happy :D

I havent felt this healthy in like a month ^^ Man. Never thought I'd feel like this again. :) So hyper. hehehe.

Learn from your past...

Since the last time my computer fried, Dan's been giving me advice about how to avoid the problem. Or well, he gave me advice the night my computer frizzled. I have since been sick but I woke up today feeling quite healthy! (except for the riot that my gut went into after eating some laksa... oh well ). But anyways, I got around to moving my computer into a frizzle-friendly location. It used to be in the little slot where my snacks now reside.





And what do I intend to do with all the heat generated in the summer?

muaha.

dont be silly

okay. *breathes* its all good. I just feel like yakking. thats all. yakking about philosophical things. but we all know that philosophy is just another word for "opinion" in this post-modern society. you believe what you think and ill believe what i think. Funny. when you put it like that it sounds almosy grecian. grecian or greek?

so what if i ramble. so what if my thoughts are stacked and orderly. if you dont want to read whats going on in my head, then why do you read this? Whats the point of going to someones blogsite and then grumble that their blogs are too long. too emotional. too personal.

oh go stuff an artichoke. nobody gives a clam about your opinion. if you dont want to read it, dont. post-modern enough for all of us.

are you telling me that christians shouldnt be post modern?

now im confused. i was going to talk about philosophy but ive gone completely off on a tangent. i can now see that my brains need to overflow into a bucket every now and again. in black and white or in words. well. since ive stopped talking to the wall, its been piling up. why?

because i dont have a cat. I want a cat. cos im lonely.

im lonely because im not willing to put the time and effort into having a friend. Because im too busy doing stuff, and so is everyone else. that when i stop doing stuff, ive got no one to not do stuff with. i miss having friends who live up the road, across the street. I hate how everyone lives so far away. i hate the telephone. it makes me anxious. i like msn. but its tiring to type all the time. did i always use to be this chattery? i feel like i just want to chatter and not shut up at all for the next 8 hours. and im thirsty too. shut up. im not whining.

maybe all i need is a holiday. a holiday where i meet God.
maybe all I need is some time alone. to remember that it isn't all that bad.
but i hate being alone.

i like living alone, but i hate being alone. its the same paradox as not being alone but feeling utterly lonely. i think someone is hacking into my brain.

more gibberish please. if i wrote absolute nonsense, will you stop reading my blog? okay. well. i dunno what to say anymore. i just write stupid things that frustrate me or make me happy. because my life is never mediocre. always melodramatic. but always at the same amplitude. frustratingly frequent but ampitudinally apathetic.

i think my brains are crappy. its prolly got the worst genetic make-up ever.

why do schizs talk to people who arent there. because theyre lonely, and they also stopped talking to the wall. cos the wall mocks us in cold silence. you think im crazy? you try talking to a wall. its mockery brings spit to my mouth. nobody understands me because i dont understand myself. maybe im crazy and im stifling it with all my education.

my education brings me equal amounts of joy and suffering.

education makes life so......asthmatic.

im giong to eat watermelon tommorow. i wish you wouldnt try to reason with everything i do. she says, "it will be heavy and alot of work. everyone will want a slice of your watermelon. it will be at a cost to you." but i just want to eat my watermelon. why do my brains keep telling me what to do. why does it always have to be so bossy. i bet she thinks she's always right. thats why she's always telling me what to do. why ant my brains be put to better use. concentrate when i need it to. but no. she does what she likes. frivilous thing. she needs a spanking.

grggh

Oh gosh... im having middle of the night quarter life identity crisis! >.<

I supposed this happens to most international students who have actually left a past behind. I can't help feeling nostalgic... I just read a cartload of BGC blogs.

And all of a sudden I feel so... old. And foreign. And indescribably aloof. Well.. I dont feel aloof... I just feel like I am aloof. Like I creepily blog stalk all these people because I never have time to talk to them but I secretly think of them alot and I wonder what things would be like if I ever went back....

OF course I'd want to go back. Why wouldnt I? I dunno. I kinda like how things were. I had an identity of sorts. Which I obviously don't have now because I'm an old fart who's graduating from uni, worrying about jobs, houses and marriage, wishing she could go back to her teenager years just like all the other old hags out there because the sense of responsibility now is just far too unappealing, a malaysian who wishes she was australian but holds steadfastly to her asian culture. WHAt on earth am I jabbering about!?!????

What the hell is going on in my head.......

I just wish I never came to australia is what I think my brains want me to say.

Its not that I hate australia. I love it. alot.

its just that, life is far too complicated now. sometimes i just wanna go back to how it used to be. like yknow... YF. college. not pretenses. no expectations. i did badly in school so nobody expected me to be the wise ass that i am now. i didnt need to make friends. we just became friends. Why do i need to make friends here? why cant we just BE friends??? Why are australians to difficult to befriend!?

and nobody makes limau ais, and if they do they call it lemonade and they charge you 4 bucks for it. ;.;

and its not that i dont like ying. he's great and Godly and an inspiration. But I dont talk to him the way i talk to francis.

argh my brains are going crazy. leave me alone!!!!

OMG am i home-sicking? :o is this how it feels to be home sick? geez...after 3 years...

blah havent finished it yet. feel so blah.

=.=

i hate uni. i hate yew. i hate yew. i hate yew. go away.

Operation Incentive

I need to do work. If I finish what I need to do today by today, I get to eat this packet of delicious, crispy salt and vinegar chips.

Added incentive: If I finish early enough, I get to eat it by the harbour as the sun is setting.

p.s. did I mention? Tet won a metronome/tuner from Coke hourly draws :D

confused...

I visited the doctor today. I walked away feeling just as downcast and confused as before.

We first concluded that it was probably an allergy reaction.

Then I told her about the headaches and the fevers. And then she decided that it was a viral rash. Her advice? "come back if its not gone in a week."

Great. Thanks. And what am I supposed to do with my headaches? May i add that i cant friggin study. "Just take some panadol."

"Isn't taking prolonged doses of panadol bad for you?"

"As long as you take no more than 8 a day."

Im no doctor but last I heard taking panadol isnt exactly the best thing.

And she didn't give anymore advice. No "stay home and rest, here's a cert." or "Since its viral you should stay away from people." Like... so is it contagious or not? Would resting make it go away? No tips on whether I should shower with sorbolene or soap?

Man...im fully dissapointed. =.=

What a waste of my time. I should either recover or die. Hovering in between is a waste of resources and energy.

Edit: I looked up "viral rash" and found this. I think I'm in the non-specific category. It seems to fit. The dramatic rash upon waking up, the slight cough and fever, the tiredness (im sleeping something like 14 hours a day now and have been for the past 4-5 days). I guess the doctor wasn't so useless after all :P All I want is closure. I hope this resolves soon. Sigh.

Gross pictures :P

I woke up after my afternoon siesta with a rash that spread over my entire body. Maybe the reason I've been feeling so sick is cos of the antibiotics. Looks like an allergy reaction to me...

Well at least I have an excuse now to take time off my busy schedule to see a doctor...

Sometimes I can't help but feel sorry for myself as a uni student. They never give you a chance to be sick. He who gets through uni rarely falls sick. =.=

all said and done...

I guess that I really shuold be thankful to God that I'm blessed enough to be able to afford these services. Like even though I gripe about it, we're able to dish out the money for it. Which really places me in the "Graciously Blessed" category.

Thinking about it, $15 a week is about what my uncle spends for his saturday morning breakfast and papers. :P

Funny how a paradigm shift can just turn the tide of things.

And , like, is it just me or are my drugs making me more emo than usual?? o.O;

Brief Update

Thought I'd update my blog because I realise that the past 3 weeks have been nothing but complaints about my computer's absence. haha. how pathetic.

I went to a radiographer to get an OPG (orthopedic graph) i.e. wisdom teeth xray. Twas a sad day when the dentist told me that my nerves were too close to my wisdom teeth for her to pull it out so I now have to go to an oral surgeon. Great, I thought. My medical insurance doesn't cover dental and now I gotta see a specialist. AND I have to pull out 4. I thought I only had two.. ;.;

She also prescribed me some antibiotics about 2 weeks ago which I didn't take for several reasons:

1) My swelling seemed to be going away
2) antibiotics are bad for you when taken over a long period
3) the fact that I use Colgate Total may lead to multiple resistance and I could end up with something even weirder x.x
4) drugs = $$

but anyways, I totally lost the battle. It got infected again and I started getting fever and when you learn about these things and watch people die, you really dont want to be stubborn. So I got myself about a weeks worth of antibiotics. So expensive!! Its like a buck per pop. Man... If I have to take 1-2 months worth of this, I dread the hole its gonna burn into my pocket and heaven forbid what kind of microflora imbalances I'll have >.<

sigh. a series of unfortunate events. sometimes my life feels more like a soap opera. can you blame me for being the drama queen that i am? :/

and just when life got hectic too.

i havent washed my hair in 5 days o_o *scritch scritch*

saiyo . . .. . . . .