Feelin' Frumpy

I feel frumpy and by frumpy i mean -

- confused
- disorganised
- fat
- unhealthy

Think Bridget Jones.

Kopi

Pre-exam realisations:

1) I am again chewing my nails to bits

2) I make the crappiest cup of coffee

3) Gloria Jeans makes the best coffee (yes, better than Starbucks)

4) I think I'm obsessing about coffee

5) Eating salad just makes you eat more frequently

Day of Many Purchases

Last day of uni today. I don't know what it is about the feeling of freedom that makes me feel like buying stuff. hahaha. So I thought I'd make a list of random things I bought today in the order I got them.

10.45am - Bought Sydney Morning Herald and an orange Uni highlighter.

1pm - bought a radio clock off someone. Always wanted one, and it only cost $10. :)

2.30pm - Bought a large chillie quarter pounder meal at maccas.

3.30pm - Bought a 2nd hand Jewel - "Spirit" cd. $5. What a bargain!! My maccas cost more!

Thats all. This is really an excuse to show off my radio clock. har har.

Last lecture of my entire life today. Dissapointingly, it just had to be Peter Reeves. Far out. Even Kuchel would've been a better last-lecture-of-my-life lecturer. ARGH. he's tainted my milestones forever. x(

Birds

I was sitting at my desk, bored halfway to death. My brains were numb and so was my bum. I stared outside idly like I always do when I have nothing else to look at and to my utmost delight, I discovered a bird's nest in the tree outside my room window. Its those black and white birds (magpie?). I saw her fly to her nest and feed her chick. Unusually, I only saw one chick. It could be that this bird only lays one egg per season, or that the rest of her brood have succumbed to death.

I really do feel endeavoured to just sit and stare at the nest. I've always had a fascination for animal behaviour. More so when its just sitting there and im just sitting here!


Speaking of birds, a bunch of us went for Thai at Newtown after church on Sunday...

Mmmmm yummy...

Sunday morning...

I woke up this morning to :

Empty hands held high
Such small sacrifice
If not joined with my life
I sing in vain tonight

May the words I say
And the things I do
Make my lifesong sing
Bring a smile to You

Let my lifesong sing to You
Let my lifesong sing to You
I wanna sign Your name at the end of this day
Knowing that my heart was true

Lord I give my life
A living sacrifice
To reach a world in need
To be Your hands and feet

So may the words I say
And the things I do
Make my lifesong sing
Bring a smile to You

Lifesong © Casting Crowns 2005

After which there was:

Why are you downcast, O my soul?
Why so disturbed within me?
Put your hope in God,
For I will yet praise him,
My Saviour and my God.

Psalm 42:11

Followed by:

Why should I gain from His reward? I cannot give an answer.
But this I know with all my heart, His wounds have paid my ransom.

(How Deep The Fathers Love)

Life is just... kiwi?

Life is like a kiwi.
Its prickly on the outside and sour on the inside.
And it stings when you taste it.
But its still really good for you...

Lonely Items

Today I dropped by Broadway Shopping Center on my way home. I wanted to buy come cat food so that I could feed the cats in the quaint old pathway on my way to uni and back since Im trying to save money this month by walking to uni and walking home.

So I bought the cat kibble and then got distracted by a very large bag of chips. It was on sale, STUVAC is around the corner, so I purchased that too.

When I arrived at Cat Alley, I sat down and fed the cats for awhile, admiring their fur and beautiful eyes. It then ocured to me that buying a box of cat food (or any animal food for that matter) and an extremely large bag of chips was indicative of a highly bachelor lifestyle. And not only that, but a lonely lifestyle. It makes you think of empty studio apartments and late nights watching mindless movies (or heaven forbid, soap operas) while munching on a bag of chips. And of course, your ever faithful fluffy companion as your only company.

I felt like those girls you see in movies that lead a bachelor life and are too shy to go out and meet new people or do things. Inevitably, they also dont have any friends and if they do, theyre prolly online mates.

We all know that rants without solutions have no substance. So my solution? Buy two bags of chips and a large bottle of coke. Then it just looks like you're picking up a few supplies for a party.

Permenant Residency

Today, Tet and i attended this talk from DIMIA (immigration) which basically gave us info about how to go about applying for permenant residency. Much to my delight, I found out that I'm already eligible for application!

I'm very happy and very relieved and really quite excited. I dare say that if everything goes well, I'll be a permenant resident this time next year. Which means I can prolly work in Aus and yea, start building my life here.

So exciting! Will have to look into all the details after exams... :)

Since my blog is devoid of pictures lately, I thought I'd post a humourous one up. Found this on a site womehere while browsing. hehe.

p.s. note his katana. lol.

Jesus I am waiting...

Jesus I am reaching
I'm longing for you now
To meet me in my weakness
And heal me with your power

I wanna see you
Open up my eyes
I wanna see you
Tonight

Jesus I am ready
To leave the past behind
But I'm still hesitating
To let go in my mind

I'm fighting with confusion
And I'm drowning in my sin
I thought I knew the answers
But I'm left unsatisfied within

I Wanna See You :: Matt Brouwer
© 2001 New Spring Publishing Inc.

If I were a Ben & Jerry's, I'd be...

BROWNIE BATTER! You scored 77% SWEET, 51% CHUNKY, and 74% UNIQUE!

brownie batter ice cream with a rich brownie batter swirl Mmmm....you are a very sweet mix indeed! You are warm, loving, and caring to all those around you, but you're not boring in the least! You have a wild streak and a creative, unique streak, too. You are a great friend, an interesting person, and you know how to have fun without ending up crouching over a toilet bowl. Nice!

Closing Down Sale

Yesterday as I was walking to uni, Mitsubishi was handing out free Sydney Morning Heralds with their new Mitsubishi 380 splashes all over it. Freebie newspaper! I read that there was a book sale in George Street. Since I had to go to World Square, I thought I'd go look for the bookstore since it was directly across World Square (about two doors away from Delifrance). I walked in and there were stacks of books, and funny european accordian type music with this operatic rombust singer. Funny atmosphere.

Browsed through all the cds. Nothing interesting. And the interesting ones were too expensive :P $15 !? no thanks.

Browsed through some novel names. Nothing interesting. Too many books. No sciencey ones, and the few that were sciencey were too expensive. $20 !? You're kidding me.

Then I spotted the piles and piles of comicbooks and magazines (all wrapped, mind you!) that littered the floor of the shop. Oh my!!! There was all the old school harvey comics like casper, baby huey, richie rich. Then the old school disney comic like tale spin, chip and dale. The old marvel comics - xmen type. and power rangers. and a kajillion other old comics that never quite took off with funny names and old school drawings. old school man!! AND they had MAD magazines too! At a buck each!!! So I bought one. Tempted to buy two... but.... i dunno. 2 bucks can buy me 200g of chocolate y'know. So I stuck with one.

They also have this official Neopets magazine that was going at $20. At that price, it could very well be their first edition!! I see alot of value in the future for that magazine... but.... $20!? You're kidding me...

Nobel Prize 2005

Australia, just like every other small country, is immeasurably proud of the few high achievers. Few Nobel Prize Winners, mostly in the field of immunology.

This year, the Nobel Prize Winners of Physiology & Medicine goes to Barry J. Marshall and J. Robin Warren. Both Australians, mind you. And a most surprising award in my point of view.

They discoevered that Helicobacter causes stomach ulcers. At that time, stomach ulcers were pretty common and blamed on a stressful lifestyle and bad diet. Incidently, the famous James Watson (who along with Francis Crick discovered the double helix) complained of stomach ulcers while he was undertaking his PhD, and made his ground breaking discovery soon after. Stomach ulcers at a mere 20-odd years of age.

Anyways, our aussie nobel laureates discovered that Helicobacter was required for the acquisition of stomach ulcers but there was alot of controversy and some people refused to believe them because they could not prove it on a human subject. So, being the ever determined scientist, one of them (cant remember who) made up a culture of bacteria, drank it, and developed stomach ulcers. Irrefutably proving his point, and causing a domino effect on redefining the causes of many other "mystery illnesses".

This is where the surprise comes in. I had heard that he then went on to develop stomach cancer and died! But apparently not because just a couple of weeks ago he was present to recieve his nobel prize :p

Anyways, congratulations to them. Boohaha to my lecturer Christopherson who predicted that the next aussie nobel laureate was gonnabe this other dude from Canberra. And yes. This has sparked my hope of ever recieving a nobel prize. A dream I shoved aside when I realised just how ground breaking work had to be in order to be even considered for nomination. But now... I dunno. I mean... Helicobacter isn't really all that groundbreaking.... Last year's nobel laureates on ubiquitin was really alot more admirable, in my opinion.

*shrugs* meh.

Read more...

The lack thereof...

Its been awhile since my heart bled.

Its been awhile since I felt immeasurable pain throbbing inside of my chest. The kind of pain that makes your fingertips tingle and your appetite vanish. That depletes your drive and makes you just wanna lie awake at night to stare at passive things, and make you want to sleep the entire daylight away so you dont have to deal with more crap.

Lately, all Ive felt is either happiness or frustration.

Im either happy because the weather is good, my assignments went well, I had a nice dinner with friends, I have chocolate to eat, I watched a funny show, things just get done etc.

Or Im frustrated because my wallet goes missing, my computer hangs, I forget my house keys, I fall sick at the most inappropriate times, my brains refuse to work, I dont get along with some people, I forget to do things, people annoy me, things dont go as planned etc.

What does this mean? I've lost the capacity to feel sorrow and thus only feel anger/frustration. Or my life is just too darned good.

Citizen of Nerdsville...

Sometime back Dan and I were talking about my 1337ness vs nerdiness. People tend to think I'm abit of a hybrid because I sometimes talk geek talk. However, it is all really just a scheme to appear geeky because I secretly think that geeks are cooler than nerds.

Here are my results:

Pure Nerd 56 % Nerd, 17% Geek, 26% Dork

For The Record: A Nerd is someone who is passionate about learning/being smart/academia. A Geek is someone who is passionate about some particular area or subject, often an obscure or difficult one. A Dork is someone who has difficulty with common social expectations/interactions. You scored better than half in Nerd, earning you the title of: Pure Nerd. The times, they are a-changing. It used to be that being exceptionally smart led to being unpopular, which would ultimately lead to picking up all of the traits and tendences associated with the "dork." No-longer. Being smart isn't as socially crippling as it once was, and even more so as you get older: eventually being a Pure Nerd will likely be replaced with the following label: Purely Successful. My test tracked 3 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender: You scored higher than 54% on nerdiness You scored higher than 14% on geekosity You scored higher than 34% on dork points The Nerd? Geek? or Dork? Test

What Flavour Are You?

Cor blimey, I taste like Tea. I am a subtle flavour, quiet and polite, gentle, almost ambient. My presence in crowds will often go unnoticed. Best not to spill me on your clothes though, I can leave a nasty stain. What Flavour Are You?

Apparently if I wasnt tea, I'd be...

I am Vanilla Flavoured. I am one of the most popular flavours in the world. Subtle and smooth, I go reasonably with anyone, and rarely do anything to offend. I can be expected to be blending in in society. What Flavour Are You?

Ed: I highly doubt the both of those results...

Ravenous...

Lately my appetite has been abit of a monster. I've been eating non-stop. Also... been having the worst chocolate cravings ever! Its all I can think about.

At uni, Gareth Denyer is teaching us about fat, obesity and its effects on metabolism. A possible explaination to my sudden peak in food obsession is the fact that during my surgery, my weight went below my "set point" (a set weight that your body thinks you should be because you've been that weight for so long). As a consequence, my metabolim has dropped dramatically in an attempt to control my set point weight. This results in an increase in appetite to return body weight to the set point. Which is where Im at now.

Of course chocolate cravings dont need any explaination. ahem.

Sometime ago Woolies was selling TimTams at $1.60 each. Bargain!!! So I bought like 20 packets or something. Boy am I glad for that. Cos now Im ploughing through them like nobody's business. Can't really afford to buy proper chocolate cos Cowra House Party is this weekend.

Which brings me to this weekend. Im excited. :D

Jeniffer Knapp has some good songs. :) She's so accousticy! ♥ ♥ ♥

Chocolate cravings....

Halloween is coming. Boss say you gimme chocolate...

You're Beautiful...

That James Blunt has been haunting me. Theres such a whimsical notation behind the word "beautiful". And I like how he has these random high notes scattered throughout his songs. Takes you by surprise and you feel the thrill of listening to a new song.

How I Spent Labour Day...

Ahhhh monday was such a lovely day!! The weather was summery and perfect for hanging out with someone I love to hang out with. :P

We went to Koorong and I got a Jennifer Knapp cd for $8.50! :o I wanted to get Jars of Clay's Redemption songs but sadly, it was $30. I guess, after calculation, that it would be about $25 after the 15% discount.....maybe next time. Switchfoot was only $13 after discount too! But I already bought it in Malaysia. Argh bargain! :P

Went to dirt cheap cds after and got James Blunt for $14. Tet finally got his Foo Fighters. Not really a big fan of FF, personally :p

We had lunch at this fish and chips shop and came across a new type of Pepsi:

Tasted like Pepsi mixed with cordial. The bottle said it was mango and tangerine. Quite nice, nontheless. Unarguably exotic :P

And we watched Howl's Moving Castle at night! It was okay.... I didnt cry. All good movies make you cry. But it had alot of magical elements, true to Miyazaki's style which makes it really interesting. Very creative, the way some things were presented. Abit confusing story line. And yes, Howl is such a bishounen!!! lol.

Anyways back to hectic uni life. Already the workload is making me neglect immaculate house keeping regulations and my uncle has been dropping alot of sour hints. I hate that. I cant wait to move out. Honestly, my uncle needs to learn to relax. Just cos he's intrinsically ferrety, he has no right to demand his fellow inhabitants to pick up his obsessive compulsive disorders. Sheesh. 3 more years.....

Catch Up Time

Time to catch up on all the work I was supposed to do during the holidays but never got to do because I didnt feel up to it. Looks like a long night ahead.

Coffee said she'll stay up with me tonight. True friend indeed. :)

Resound: Aftermath

Then I looked and heard the voice of many angels, numbering thousands upon thousands, and ten thousand times ten thousand. They encircled the throne and the living creatures and the elders. In a loud voice they sang:

"Worthy is the Lamb, who was slain,
to receive power and wealth and wisdom and strength
and honor and glory and praise!"

Then I heard every creature in heaven and on earth and under the earth and on the sea, and all that is in them, singing:

"To him who sits on the throne and to the Lamb
be praise and honor and glory and power,
for ever and ever!"

Revelations 5:11-13 (NIV)

Resound as usual had its glitches. I dunno why technical probs always happen during the event and never during practise or whatever :P just random slip ups due to probability i guess.

Interviewed some people about it tonight. All of them said that they were encouraged, enjoyed the evening and that if we ever held something like Resound again, they would definately come.

And Deb Fung's voice is amazing!!!! <3 And she writes awesome music!!! And she's got the most envious almond eyes!!! She's so cool ^^

---> wrote a paragraph here which i lost for some reason... o_O The long and short of the paragraph was that I want to make a cd with people's feedback and stuff so if you went to Resound, it would be helpful (and nice) to come up to me and we can get a 2-minute-or-so interview going.

Man I'm bushed. Time for bed. :)

God is awesome and gracious and almighty and yea, for sure He deserves heaps of glory and honour and praise. More than we can ever offer. Hallalujah and maranatha.

Nerd Update:

Resound is on Today!! So pumped!!!! :D

Also, goodbye to my drugs. I've finally finished my course. :)

I think today will be a better day...

To my friends in UK...

SOLAR ECLIPSE: On October 3rd, the moon will glide in front of the sun, producing a solar eclipse visible from Europe, Africa and the Middle East. The eclipse won't be total, but rather annular, meaning that the moon won't be big enough to completely cover the sun. Observers along the narrow path of annularity will see a ring of fire encircling the moon--spectacular!

source: http://antwrp.gsfc.nasa.gov/apod/image/0306/Eclips310503_coeckelberghs_full.jpg