Konnichi-wa?

Your Japanese Name Is...

Mai Askikaga

What's your Japanese Name?

All thats left...

Well I hope I haven't hyped anyone up about the revamp. It isn'y great cos I'm computer illiterate. Hehehe.

Exams are finally over, I've been doing a million things. Things that I want to do. So nice xD Been feeling uber lazy too, because I can pretty much do what I feel like doing. Its an awesome feeling. Woooo. Such a relief to not have exams anymore. Really thank God for getting me through this. Dunno how I'm gonna handle next semester. Ew... :p

I made dumplings today! :D They sure turned out better than my last batch. The last time I tried to make dumplings, we couldnt find the dumpling wraps so we tried to make it out of flour. The recipe said to let it set for an hour but we didnt have an hour so we tried to make do. It turned out terrible!! Each dumpling was like the size of a fist!!! So scary... hahahaha.

Found the wraps this time around. Turned out lovely. Very happy with the outcome. :)

Exhausted

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I'm exhausted. I can't concentrate and I keep falling asleep and I just can't seem to get enough sleep. I just feel like i need to sleep and sleep..like just have a day to sleep the whole day.

I only have one more day to go but I think my body's had enough

I don't think I'm going to make it...

But it doesn't really matter anyway. Its not a life or death paper.
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What kind of girl are you?

You're like me! The intelligent loner. You're shy
at times but friendly, and you are never weak
and always independent. You are incredibly
intelligent (wise beyond your years) and have a
talent for many things (sports, music, art).
You have a kind and warm personality and enjoy
the simple things. Like hanging out with
friends and watching movies at home. But you're
sometimes quiet nature makes you a bit of an
outcast and a mystery to people. No matter how
pretty you are or smart or athletic, you just
can't seem to break into the crowd and be
noticed. Don't worry, try to be more outgoing
and speak out when you have more to say. Don't
hide behind your books and sports and computer,
get out there and get noticed. You also have
deep desires in life and feel vunerable and
alone at times. Don't feel sad either, What
helps me to express feelings and dreams that I
can't say to people, is through my writing.
Maybe you should try.

What kind of girl are you?
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We could all use a little..change...

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Exams finish tommorow.

I think I need to revamp my blog site. Its getting abuit cluttered and I'd like to try some new things out. So my site will probably be down 27-28 June (Monday & Tuesday).

Don't show up otherwise it'd prolly be very frustrating trying to download a page thats constantly trying to be uploaded. hahaha.

Thanks.
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Bic Pacer?

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If Pacer was the brand of a mechanical pencil...would saying Bic (a brand) Pacer be abit of a contradicting thing? So is it Bic or Pacer?

its like Mcleans colgate.

I have bought two Bic mechanical pencils over a period of a year and each time it seems to die on me when the pencil lead inside finishes. For some crazy reason, I just can't reload it. Its so bizzare! I even tried putting in a few at once but they all just slithered out of the pencil tip.

So I had to throw away my second perfectly "good" pencil.

So weird.. o_o

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feh

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You know you're really done for when you eat vegemite sandwiches in the hopes that it'll help you concentrate better in the exam . . .

x.x

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Grrgg!!!

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HELP!

I'm running out of patience and concentration and time!!!!!

>.<


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One Day

One day there will be no more pain, no more hurt, no more worry, no more grief.

No more tears, no more anguish, no more strife, no more death.

No more confusion, no more misunderstanding, no more frustration, no more hopelessness.

That day will come. And I hope it comes soon.

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Custard puffs!

Uncle came home today with a box of custard puffs! :D All for me and tet, he says. Bad for his cholesterol level. SO yummy ^^

Now I can put back on all that weight I've lost over the exam period. Would you believe it. The stress cost me 3 kgs. Partly cause i have bizzare waking hours thus i eat bizzarely and also cause stress makes me lose my appetite [ so dont argue with me when im eating or i cant eat :( ]

yummy ^^

HAhahaahahAhahahHAahahAHAhahahaha......?

Its so funny. I think ive gone abit crazy. But its so cool!! I feel wittier than ive ever felt before. And more random and more hyper and... it reminds me of my teenage years xD

I want to do silly things. I want to feed the ducks.

But I have to sit down and read about parasites and bacteria and viruses....the things I learn are so trivial and yet are not always common sense. Its an annoying in between.

Not hard like biochemistry.

Not easy like cooking.

In between. Like microbiology.

Sally ann is coming over tommorow. I hope I can keep my sanity... *smrrfff snicker*

Want to be Charlie's Angel?

This is Charlie. He was given to a friend as a present but as their family continues to grow, they hardly have any time for him. Charlie is 6 months old and apparently should be able to talk. He's really beautiful.... what with the white and blue feathers. I'm so in love!! But I cant keep pets :(

Would anyone like him for free? Accesories come with the bird e.g. cage, mirror, leftover food. Apparently you only need to talk to him for half an hour each day but I'm sure most animal lovers will be apt to talking for longer than that. OH his beady eyes are so kawaii!! ^^

Do let me know.

Welcome, Moses!

I procrastinated and myself a cutie-pie of a pet. Isn't he the cutest!? ^^ So funny when he chases your hand and chews it. hehe ^^

Also: Happy Birthday Roy!!

Now moses and you have the same birthdays :D

Ugh...

Today while I was at Woolies i saw this dude do total projectile vomiting on the floor. It was like, blergh and it was over. And I think that shocked me the most was how he managed to hold that much liquid inside of him! And after that he just kept wandering around shiftily....

Suffice to say I was totally disgusted. I keep replaying it over and over in my mind, something I'm apt to do (thats why I hate scary movies) and I've been feeling really queasy ever since. Even after I went to sleep for 4 hours...i cant get it out of my head. I just feel like throwing up too x.x

But yknow....I think its times like this where I'd find my love for others really stretched. If I was older and richer, would I walk up to him and ask him if he'd like some medical treatment? Something to eat? Would I have the courage to shove away images of bacteria and to think about his soul and about God's kingdom?

I cant say I love him. In fact...im not even inclined to like him because I cant study feeling like this!!! Its fully annoying....

Loving others is a hard call. It really is . . .

Yaayyyyy thank you God thank you God thank you thank you ^^

Secret Romance

I have a romance with pre-dawn hours.

its really relaxing sometimes....to just be awake at this time of the night. also, my cold is gone :) Must've been a 24 hour thing. just to confound my bchm exam even more.

Andy Holmes tommorow.... sigh. Its so hard to tell with him. Hope it goes well.

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My nose feels like it wants to say something but isn't saying it . . .

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More ramblings

I liken my self to a samurai. Preparing to go into battle. They were so brave then. Accepting fate as it came. I too will be brave. I will go into battle and die an honourable death. I will not beg for my life.

Pre-exam Ramblings

My first paper is tommorow. It's my longest and hardest paper of the lot and I am so shit scared. I seriously am trembling so hard inside and i feel like throwing up.

The Bible says don't be anxious about anything but trust in the Lord, who is faithful and sovereign over all things. And I can hear Him calling to me, telling me not to worry. To just be still and remember that no matter how much I do or do not study, His will is what the ultimate end will be.

Then why am I so scared? Whats the worst that could happen? Worst that could happen is I could fail and I'd have to repeat. But my world isn't going to end...I'm not gonna get disowned or anything. And you never fail when you repeat cos you know everything already anyway.

I dont know why Im so scared. I dont know why I cant just let go and trust Him to provide for me what He knows (and I know) is best.

I'm so scared . . .

Again I am dissapointed by his lack of wisdom, foresight, alertness, common sense.

How many more times will I endure before I land the blow?

I wonder myself....

ARGH

Im so screwed!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! >.<

High Density

I just realised something..after...maybe... 3 days. That when i sit down to study, sometimes I feel abit uncomfortable..and my hands get all sweaty. I thought maybe its cos I felt anxious for my exams. But.. although I do, I'm not in panic mode.

And then today I just realised that maybe the jumper I'm wearing is too warm for me. :p And. Its true. How dense can you get!?

gah xP

My Only Hope

I just want to be where You are
Living daily in Your presence
I dont want to worship from afar
Draw me near to where You are...

I want to be where You are
Dwelling in Your presence
Feasting at Your table
Surrounded by Your glory
In Your presence
Thats where I only want to be
I just want to be...
I just want to be with You...

* Cant remember who its from *

One day we're gonna look back and you might ask,

" I wonder what went wrong... "

And I'll say,

" Don't you remember? You screwed up. "

O to worship You, worship You fully
O to bow down, bow down at Your throne
O to sing of Your grace and Your mercy
O to render to my God alone.

Why are you downcast, O my soul?
Why so disturbed within me?
Put your hope in God
for I will praise Him
my Saviour and my God.

Psalm 42:11

STUVAC!!!!

Yayyyy first day of stuvac (i.e. HOLIDAYS) lol. Mann... i thought this semester would NEVER end and it finally has!!!! I know I'm supposed to be sad that exams are coming up but it seems so far away and I feel so delighted about not having to drag myself out of bed every morning to attend some trash lecture about proteins. blahhahahahahaha.

wooooo x)

Observations from my very short day...

1) God gave fish very many tiny little bones x.x

2) Soy beans have protein!! o_o;

3) I was walking along pyrmont bridge today when i saw this lady sitting on a bench, bent doubled over. I walked away but soon came to realise that she had not moved very much since I saw her from the distance. I became concerned, a desire burned within me to do something. So I walked back to her and asked if she was alright. She didnt answer. Her eyes were closed.

She was dressed nicely, and has really nice boots. She didn't seem like a homeless person. She didnt seem like she was in pain. She was pretty expressionless. She just looked like she was in a coma or something. Not recieving an answer, I decided maybe it was best to leave her to do whatever it is she seems to be doing...

But see...here's the thing... when do you start to think that maybe theres something very wrong with her, maybe she needs help, fast. Maybe she needs you to shake her or call an ambulance or give her a glass of water. .. but... when is doing that an invasion of one's privacy?

I could replay the scenario without me walking away. Maybe instead I could've tapped her, asked again abit louder this time. Make my presence more obvious. Would she have realised that someone was concerned for her and tried to communicate her need for help? Or would her eyes have snapped open, only to glare angrily at me for disturbing her ritual/meditation/prayer/thing ?

Is this maybe why our society seems so cold and uncaring towards strangers?
not so much in AUstralia...i think more so in other countries.

What to do?

OH i had the most shocking medical micro prac exam!!! x.x

It was terrible.

On the plus side though, I walked home and was walking through this secluded pathway when i see three of the chunkiest fluffiest cats ever (sooo kewt!! ^^ ) and there was this old man feeding them and we talked. And i thought how exotic that whole incident was because cats are a rarity in australia. Especially stray ones. And the secluded path with the trees and short, brick apartments next to it felt like i was in a new place. And the old man, he speaking with an accent.

I felt quite enthralled by the whole idea of having tea with this exotic old man and his exotic old cats...

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The Valley Song (Sing of Your Mercy)

You have lead me to the sadness
I have carried this pain
On my back, bruised and nearly broken
I'm crying out to You

[chorus]
I will sing of Your mercy
That leads me through valleys of sorrow
To rivers of joy

When death, like a gypsy
Comes to steal what I love
I will still look to the heavens
I will still seek Your face

But I fear You aren't listening
Because there are no words
Just the stillness and the hunger
For a faith that is Yours

[chorus]
I will sing of Your mercy
That leads me through valleys of sorrow
To rivers of joy

Alleluia, alleluia
Alleluia, alleluia

While we wait for rescue
With our eyes tightly shut
Face to the ground, using our hands
To cover the fatal cut

Though the pain is an ocean
Tossing us around, around, around
You have calmed greater waters
Higher mountains have come down

:: Jars Of Clay ::

album: Furthermore: From the Studio/From the Stage (2003)

meaningless. meaningless. it is like chasing the wind. just when you think you're going good, then everything just slaps you in the face. and you realise yet again that nothing is worth anything and that everything is worth nothing. and you just know. you just know that everything is meaningless.

it is like chasing after the wind.


Jesus I am waiting. Please hurry. I don't think my heart can last much longer...


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