As exams drew closer,
My knowledge grew deeper,
The more that I know,
The more I forgo,
The more I forget,
The less my intellect,
And so why bother study,
When your brain just gets more muddy,
Stupor thickens your skull,
Social skills become dull,
Fingers are chewn to bits,
Too much info makes you schiz,
You waste your youth while you're still young,
At 19 you're already too high strung,
The madness grows, it fills the air!
You cross the line but you don't care,
I guess we do it just for the thrill,
Of being a citizen of Nerdsville.
Sunday, June 29, 2003
Saturday, June 28, 2003
Coolness Factor...
Last night I had a typical family dinner with my extended family. As usual there were the warm smiles, silly jokes and plenty of wine to go around. This time however, a friend of mine graced our food laden table and him coming from a family that isn't very close knit, he was just bowled over by his experience. See the thing is, I never had much of a family as a kid. I originated from your typical broken-home type family and grew up a typical family-hating scoundrel. Or not so typical.
My paternal granma and her siblings are soooo close to each other that only death could ever pry them apart, and even then not emotionally. Subsequently, most of the generations under them follow suit and this includes me. As I get older, I definately see the bonds that we as a family have. Just all the Chinese New Year dinners and Christmases are enough to make me realise how much luckier I am because even though my nuclear family is a complete break down, the garden around it is a myriad of beauty. These are truly beautiful people whom I grow to love more and more each passing year and needless to say, I am very VERY proud of my family.
Its unfortunate that my generation isnt as close as the generations before and its troubles me that as each sibling of my granma passes away, the bonds may never be as strong. As it is two have gone, including my grandmother, leaving only 3...one of whom is in a position that may cause some problems. I need to treasure and cherish these precious moments before it all slips away because it is an unevitable fact that eventually, everyone dies. Its only a matter of time.
Ive never really thought much about my typical family dinners but just having my friend over yesterday really blessed me because it made me realise even further how lucky I am. My friend's new hero is now my granduncle whose "coolnes factor" hit the ceiling apparently. hehehe. He is a pretty cool guy and is someone whom I respect very much. Yea. They say that blood is thicker than water and I cant say that I believe in that entirely but there is a certain extra emotion involved when around family you love. A feeling being around friends doesnt normally produce and Im truly blessed to be able to experience that which most people my age never get to.
Truly blessed.
My paternal granma and her siblings are soooo close to each other that only death could ever pry them apart, and even then not emotionally. Subsequently, most of the generations under them follow suit and this includes me. As I get older, I definately see the bonds that we as a family have. Just all the Chinese New Year dinners and Christmases are enough to make me realise how much luckier I am because even though my nuclear family is a complete break down, the garden around it is a myriad of beauty. These are truly beautiful people whom I grow to love more and more each passing year and needless to say, I am very VERY proud of my family.
Its unfortunate that my generation isnt as close as the generations before and its troubles me that as each sibling of my granma passes away, the bonds may never be as strong. As it is two have gone, including my grandmother, leaving only 3...one of whom is in a position that may cause some problems. I need to treasure and cherish these precious moments before it all slips away because it is an unevitable fact that eventually, everyone dies. Its only a matter of time.
Ive never really thought much about my typical family dinners but just having my friend over yesterday really blessed me because it made me realise even further how lucky I am. My friend's new hero is now my granduncle whose "coolnes factor" hit the ceiling apparently. hehehe. He is a pretty cool guy and is someone whom I respect very much. Yea. They say that blood is thicker than water and I cant say that I believe in that entirely but there is a certain extra emotion involved when around family you love. A feeling being around friends doesnt normally produce and Im truly blessed to be able to experience that which most people my age never get to.
Truly blessed.
Tuesday, June 24, 2003
Coke for ... Cranium?
My goodness. I should've studied while I had the chance. Here I am cramming at 4am with my exam in hours. I am so totally doomed. Doomed I say. But Chem today was honestly not too bad. I know it could have been worse were it not for some God-sent friends and God Himself was right there with me, helping me along. Praise Him, ever-loving and sovereign Lord.
Saturday, June 21, 2003
Broken Angels..
Exams make you nostalgic....well not really. But they do make you go online for no reason thus resulting in mindless browsing. So i decided to look at some pictures of my friends and...its so weird....i look at all these incredible people and think like..wow. They've achieved SO much. Its amazing...Im only 19 and yet so many lives have coincided with mine and im sometimes sad to think of my future with them. As it is Ive lost contact with half of them, but that doesn't mean that I dont think of them. I actually do, and quite frequently.
Im so proud of my friends that I've made over the past years, especially my teenage years. These are people who have soo much potential, they have so much to give, so much to achieve. I really hope with every drop of cytoplasm in me that every one of them get to grasp their dreams. Nothing would make me happier than to see the people whom I struggled with through endless torment, who I shared abundant joy with, who shaped so much of my character achieve happiness. Everything of what and who I am today is due to these people.
I truly believe that everyone who enters my life was put there for a significant reason, angels sent by God. And its so weird cos we all think that we're so useless and ordinary and its true sometimes....sometimes we're everybit as bad as the next drug addict or prostitute yet God manages to use us in all our brokeness to enrich the lives of others. And thats what we really are. We are God's creation, made in His image sent down to earth for a reason. God's broken angels.
I praise God for using us despite our weaknesses, I thank Him for all the broken angels in my life.
Im so proud of my friends that I've made over the past years, especially my teenage years. These are people who have soo much potential, they have so much to give, so much to achieve. I really hope with every drop of cytoplasm in me that every one of them get to grasp their dreams. Nothing would make me happier than to see the people whom I struggled with through endless torment, who I shared abundant joy with, who shaped so much of my character achieve happiness. Everything of what and who I am today is due to these people.
I truly believe that everyone who enters my life was put there for a significant reason, angels sent by God. And its so weird cos we all think that we're so useless and ordinary and its true sometimes....sometimes we're everybit as bad as the next drug addict or prostitute yet God manages to use us in all our brokeness to enrich the lives of others. And thats what we really are. We are God's creation, made in His image sent down to earth for a reason. God's broken angels.
I praise God for using us despite our weaknesses, I thank Him for all the broken angels in my life.
Friday, June 20, 2003
Thursday, June 19, 2003
Trails of microorganisms...
Its exam time yet again and like the dutiful student that I am (or not hehe) Ive been studying and my goodness... reading up on microbiology gives me the creeps. To know that there are all these microscopic beings crawling,oozing, scuttling everywhere...ugh. Its making me like paranoid or something. yuks xp
And to follow up on the 100km walk thingy, my friend's group finished in 38 hours, 10 hours later than a group which consisted of 50 year olds! hahahahahaha but yea funny as it is, it wasnt easy. Throughout those 38 hours they only got 2 hours sleep and some people were injured/fell sick. Im really proud of all my friends and even those whom I dont know for completing it. But one thing dodgy is that each member has to pay $100 just to enter....thats....weird ok cos yea...people are supposed to sponsor their walking 100kms and they have to pay to walk..... like what!? Doesnt make any sense...i hope this wasnt like a scam thing. So this friend of mine wrote an "essay" on his experience for a bunch of us. Its really good reading...makes one feel as if they were there experiencing it.
I had initially thought of joining it next year but after all the tales...well....i think ill just volunteer to dish out soup at the checkout points!! hahahahaha. :P
And to follow up on the 100km walk thingy, my friend's group finished in 38 hours, 10 hours later than a group which consisted of 50 year olds! hahahahahaha but yea funny as it is, it wasnt easy. Throughout those 38 hours they only got 2 hours sleep and some people were injured/fell sick. Im really proud of all my friends and even those whom I dont know for completing it. But one thing dodgy is that each member has to pay $100 just to enter....thats....weird ok cos yea...people are supposed to sponsor their walking 100kms and they have to pay to walk..... like what!? Doesnt make any sense...i hope this wasnt like a scam thing. So this friend of mine wrote an "essay" on his experience for a bunch of us. Its really good reading...makes one feel as if they were there experiencing it.
I had initially thought of joining it next year but after all the tales...well....i think ill just volunteer to dish out soup at the checkout points!! hahahahaha. :P
Sunday, June 15, 2003
Recipe for a good night..
1) Good music
2) Good friend on the telephone
3) Good soup
4) Bed
A good life can be so simple sometimes.
2) Good friend on the telephone
3) Good soup
4) Bed
A good life can be so simple sometimes.
Saturday, June 14, 2003
The day after.
Missed blogging yesterday due to an overwhelming sense of duty for my beauty sleep. I slept for 11 hours and I feel great! Hehe. Yesterday was a pretty interesting day I think for alot of people. . .
Firstly, it was my cousin's uni graduation day. So yea everyone in her year/course graduated and its nothing short to be proud of. As a first year uni student, I now have alot of respect for people who have gone through uni. My goodness... its heaps tough! And computer programmers....dont you EVER say theyre stupid becos Software 1001 was the hardest thing I took this semester....so hard that Im dropping it next. Not worth it, I say. Im sorry for being so stupid :<
Secondly, you ever heard of American Idol? Yea some brilliant producer decided to bring it here and they were having auditions at Wentworth Building, University of Sydney.... my uni, incidently. Apparently 4000 ppl showed up and the response was so great that they've decided to extend the auditions by a day. A chance for some of them to become noticed. Yea, good for them. God's given them a talent and they should use it, otherwise it'll go to waste. Would be better if they gave it back to Him but hey, who am I to say such things. Im just a newbie blogger with absolute dribble.
Thirdly, Friday the 13th of June was also the day Oxfam(?) had their 100km walk in aid of...well...AIDS. A couple of my friends went for it and I must say, Im rather impressed. 100kms takes about 30 hours of non-stop walking and that means forgoing sleep. Im inclined to believe that my friends are still walking as it probably would have only been 25 hours since they started. Now this is something. They're helping people by giving, sacrificing. Most times we drop some coins into the Salvos box and we think, "well, Ive done my good deed of the day." But that doesnt really cut it, does it? Those few coins didnt really make a bg impact on our lives....we could afford it. Yea but people who do things that hurt them, make them sacrifice like the 40 Hour Famine or the 100kms Oxfam Walk, thats really something. It shows that theyre serious about helping others and it shows a true noble quality within them. Im proud to have friends like that and I can see that its people like this who can go really far in life cos they arent afraid to take challenges by the horns and to just go for it.
Lastly, A-Levels exams in Malaysia just finished! Woohoo.. hehe. Finished for two of my friends anyways, not really sure if it included the whole bunch of them. Finally, freedom for them and yet they've walked through another gate into another road. This road leads them to university, and this road is by far narrower and rockier. Big decisions to make and just pray that God will give them the wisdom to do what pleases Him and to honour their family and yea, pray that they will have the opportunity to follow their dreams. Nothing worse than having all the time and potential in the world to realise your dreams but to not have the opportunity to do so. And thats the thing that sometimes scares me the most these days. I know Im gonna graduate in a coupla years and then its working adulthood for the rest of my life. I have yet so much to achieve, so much I could do. Technology is moving at such a fast pace I wouldnt be surprised if the whole world either transforms or collapses before I die. And to think that I may contribute towards some of that change.....its.....awe-inspiring...and terrifying.
Thus concludes my thoughts for the day, for some people its just another day and for some others, its a significant part of their lives, forever to be etched in their memories. We shouldnt forget that this good day, it is a gift from God. As Jamie said, " Everyday's a bonus!" :)
Firstly, it was my cousin's uni graduation day. So yea everyone in her year/course graduated and its nothing short to be proud of. As a first year uni student, I now have alot of respect for people who have gone through uni. My goodness... its heaps tough! And computer programmers....dont you EVER say theyre stupid becos Software 1001 was the hardest thing I took this semester....so hard that Im dropping it next. Not worth it, I say. Im sorry for being so stupid :<
Secondly, you ever heard of American Idol? Yea some brilliant producer decided to bring it here and they were having auditions at Wentworth Building, University of Sydney.... my uni, incidently. Apparently 4000 ppl showed up and the response was so great that they've decided to extend the auditions by a day. A chance for some of them to become noticed. Yea, good for them. God's given them a talent and they should use it, otherwise it'll go to waste. Would be better if they gave it back to Him but hey, who am I to say such things. Im just a newbie blogger with absolute dribble.
Thirdly, Friday the 13th of June was also the day Oxfam(?) had their 100km walk in aid of...well...AIDS. A couple of my friends went for it and I must say, Im rather impressed. 100kms takes about 30 hours of non-stop walking and that means forgoing sleep. Im inclined to believe that my friends are still walking as it probably would have only been 25 hours since they started. Now this is something. They're helping people by giving, sacrificing. Most times we drop some coins into the Salvos box and we think, "well, Ive done my good deed of the day." But that doesnt really cut it, does it? Those few coins didnt really make a bg impact on our lives....we could afford it. Yea but people who do things that hurt them, make them sacrifice like the 40 Hour Famine or the 100kms Oxfam Walk, thats really something. It shows that theyre serious about helping others and it shows a true noble quality within them. Im proud to have friends like that and I can see that its people like this who can go really far in life cos they arent afraid to take challenges by the horns and to just go for it.
Lastly, A-Levels exams in Malaysia just finished! Woohoo.. hehe. Finished for two of my friends anyways, not really sure if it included the whole bunch of them. Finally, freedom for them and yet they've walked through another gate into another road. This road leads them to university, and this road is by far narrower and rockier. Big decisions to make and just pray that God will give them the wisdom to do what pleases Him and to honour their family and yea, pray that they will have the opportunity to follow their dreams. Nothing worse than having all the time and potential in the world to realise your dreams but to not have the opportunity to do so. And thats the thing that sometimes scares me the most these days. I know Im gonna graduate in a coupla years and then its working adulthood for the rest of my life. I have yet so much to achieve, so much I could do. Technology is moving at such a fast pace I wouldnt be surprised if the whole world either transforms or collapses before I die. And to think that I may contribute towards some of that change.....its.....awe-inspiring...and terrifying.
Thus concludes my thoughts for the day, for some people its just another day and for some others, its a significant part of their lives, forever to be etched in their memories. We shouldnt forget that this good day, it is a gift from God. As Jamie said, " Everyday's a bonus!" :)
Friday, June 13, 2003
Gollum..
I logged out and thought of going to bed,
But i couldnt help thinking the thoughts in my head,
I had to come back, my gollum-ess greed,
I sometimes wish I'd a life to lead.
I knew this would happen..... I didn't want to become overly excited about my new "toy". I wanted to give it time and not immediately flood it with random thoughts but here I sit and I wonder what it is that possesed me for I have not anything to say. I am in fact shamelessly racking my brains for something witty and/or informative to post and have as of yet only come up with the above corny limerick. Tis a gift of mine though. The corniness.
Yesterday, I watched the Simpsons episode where Homer gets a computer and has his own website. Its funny how some things are so easy in cartoons, and some things not. Homer, a day old amateur, managed to set up his own website, fit in numerous animations and even had a decent page format. Without using HTML or java script! And he didnt even need to browse for that web space...it magically appeared just so Mr.X could post poppy cock rumours about mind controlling flu shots. Ah, if only weblife were so easy.
And yet, some things are just sooo hard for them to achieve. Like Homer growing hair. And despite Lisa being the child prodigy that she is (dont get me wrong, that woman rocks!) she, nor anyone else, has seemed to move grades since well.... 6th Grade. 7th for Bart. And yea, despite Homer being the "King of the Mountaintop", he still has fears like most men.... he begs his wife to please his boss, the "excellent" Charles Montgomery Burns even though he knows he'll never get fired. Odd how the cartoon producers choose which the Simpsons struggle in, seemingly effortless things; and yet allow them freedom in things that frustrate us. Perhaps, this is their scheme for boosting ratings and yet to gloat at our stereotypical lives.
First they make the Simpsons lower than us so we can feel good, then to save their own pride, they gloat at our inferiority. Hm yes.... and so we see in this way that the forces of good and evil are in perfect balance. This is what keeps the universe ticking....the Simpsons. I only hope now that I wont be drugged and sent to.... the "Island". ;p
But i couldnt help thinking the thoughts in my head,
I had to come back, my gollum-ess greed,
I sometimes wish I'd a life to lead.
I knew this would happen..... I didn't want to become overly excited about my new "toy". I wanted to give it time and not immediately flood it with random thoughts but here I sit and I wonder what it is that possesed me for I have not anything to say. I am in fact shamelessly racking my brains for something witty and/or informative to post and have as of yet only come up with the above corny limerick. Tis a gift of mine though. The corniness.
Yesterday, I watched the Simpsons episode where Homer gets a computer and has his own website. Its funny how some things are so easy in cartoons, and some things not. Homer, a day old amateur, managed to set up his own website, fit in numerous animations and even had a decent page format. Without using HTML or java script! And he didnt even need to browse for that web space...it magically appeared just so Mr.X could post poppy cock rumours about mind controlling flu shots. Ah, if only weblife were so easy.
And yet, some things are just sooo hard for them to achieve. Like Homer growing hair. And despite Lisa being the child prodigy that she is (dont get me wrong, that woman rocks!) she, nor anyone else, has seemed to move grades since well.... 6th Grade. 7th for Bart. And yea, despite Homer being the "King of the Mountaintop", he still has fears like most men.... he begs his wife to please his boss, the "excellent" Charles Montgomery Burns even though he knows he'll never get fired. Odd how the cartoon producers choose which the Simpsons struggle in, seemingly effortless things; and yet allow them freedom in things that frustrate us. Perhaps, this is their scheme for boosting ratings and yet to gloat at our stereotypical lives.
First they make the Simpsons lower than us so we can feel good, then to save their own pride, they gloat at our inferiority. Hm yes.... and so we see in this way that the forces of good and evil are in perfect balance. This is what keeps the universe ticking....the Simpsons. I only hope now that I wont be drugged and sent to.... the "Island". ;p
In the Beginning...
In an attempt to not study/sleep I have come on to browse for something apparently too important to forgo and my brilliance has lead me to conforming to the art of blogging. Finally, the depths of my brains shall be flushed out for the world to see!! Welcome, a new era in my mundane life.
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