Tuesday, August 05, 2003

Emotional Homeostasis...

Do you think that life contains an emotional homeostasis? That is, when there is excess of one emotion, it is eventually countered by another of an opposite element such that a feeling of "bla-zeh" is achieved? Many people talk about life having their ups and downs and why do you think that is? There must be a universal emotional Receptor to recieve these impulses, send them to a Control Centre (possibly a celestial pentagon) and then to the Effector (possibly God Himself). That is why the sayings of "When you hit rock bottom, theres nowhere else to go but up" and " If you laugh too much now, you'll cry alot later" are inversely popular (maybe not so much the latter of Chinese origin).

Thinking of my life now, I am so happy I couldn't possibly be any happier. If I was any happier the Heavens would burst and ochestrate melodies of divine content. Obviously that hasn't happened yet so when it does, be sure to hug me otherwise I would be traumatised for life. If I say that it has happened but nobody else has experienced it, please drag me to a drug rehab centre, regardless of my vicious threats to decapitate you. But I can also look back and remember desolute days and bitter thoughts and moments of such anguish that even choirs of cherubims could not manifest warmth in the dungeon that was my soul. And thus I conclude, "for every up there is a down, for every smile there is a frown, and thats what makes the world go round!" (an excerpt of the song from Disney's 'Sword in the Stone'). Maybe for people with more internal pressure, the homeostasis never really hits neutrality. This is especially true for younger people.

Children have alot of passion. Passion creates energy. Energy builds internal pressure, and that is why children are never quite what we percieve as "normal". They always do things in extremes....when they play, when they talk/scream, when they eat....even their thinking is rather eccentric and is inevitably cherished by society these days. However their passion is blind passion. Its an instinctive passion. When they hit teenhood, their innocence is no longer a barrier and their passion becomes knowledgable passion. They become too darn smart for their own good and they know it. And it builds on their passion. This is why teens also act (or react) with equal amounts of extremity and yes, their thoughts too are quite odd, but obviously not as cherished by society due to the fact that the thoughts of your average teen is not so easily handled and manipulated as that of a 3 year old. Internal pressure... building, building. One day happy, one day depressed, one day loving, the other suicidal. Building, building.

Then you hit adulthood. And for some evolutionary reason, all the pressure is let loose. Internal pressure, going, going. Passion for life, receding, receding. Living for the moment......a thing of the past. Emotional homeostasis works it's magic on you and then life becomes a routine. You experience the bladahness of everyday life and even though you realise it, few struggle to escape it. The neutrality corrodes at your life, eating away all forms of passion and creativity and zest. Before you know it, you've hit midlife crisis and at the next blink of an eye, you're drinking tea on your rocking chairs complaining about the young wasting their youth. YOU WASTED YOUR YOUTH! You had a chance to build up passion, you had a chance to overcome the neutrality of the universal emotional homeostasis and YOU BLEW IT! Dont go blaming your regrets on us kids. Ive lost my point..... Simpsons is on now.

Catch ya later.

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