What I've run away from

Alot of people ask me why I want to move to Australia. There are many reasons. When I was in Malaysia, I couldnt understand why my uncle preferred Australia over Malaysia. I always thought he was just being dramatic and grumpy.

Now I understand.

But then here in Australia, when I tell people about Malaysia, they think I'm being a drama queen and just grumpy. They don't understand. They really don't understand what its like to come from such a crappy country. Its so incredibly frustrating! Its really true that sometimes, just knowing isnt enough. You have to experience it.

Watching this clip, I don't know whether what I feel is a righteous anger or an arrogant defiance. I can't believe that experts in Malaysia cannot even hold themselves well during an international interview. How can they pass off tyranny as "their way of life". No tyranny = No Malaysia? What BS.

Every fire dies

Don't let the troubles in your head
Steal too much time you'll be dead
So play

Dave Matthews Band :: You Never Know

Jazushi

Hases, Lauren and I visited a little cafe in Surry Hills which boasts Japanese-Eurasian food and free live jazz music in the evenings. The atmosphere was really casual and cosy, the food selection was wide and delectable and the band was sanguine. Overall it was a really perfect night. Good food, good company, good music. What else could you ask for?

I would highly recommend Jazushi for anyone who not only wants to catch up. I also find the ambience comfortable enough to sit there on your own and just enjoy the music while you mull. Its a pity that its located at a seedy-ish looking area. Its really done very well for itself.

Possibly one of my favourite places in Sydney. ♥

yin yang

today was a really really good day. i mean reeaaalllyy good. things just kept getting better and better. and i felt like my cynicism for life was just me being crabby from not having any purpose in life.

and then couple of hours later, there was a massacre at Virginia Tech.

and my heart sunk, and for some reason I felt like it may have been because I had such a good day. Only, 32 people had to die so I could have a perfect day.

Am I being paranoid or is the yin yang balance in my life going totally out of control...?

sometimes i wonder if everything really happens for a reason...

...or if we just place reasons on things that happen.

sometimes it feels like the world is not real and that my thoughts are all that exist.